June 2013
And I know all that! And not in the conceited way. But the smart way. And that's what makes me mad, too. And frustrated. Because I know that. And I still have these feelings. And it still hurts. And I hurt so much and that boob doesn't feel anything. But I can't keep hurting myself. We're supposed to see Superman. But I'm not holding my breath. Because I'm not making the move. It can't be my job to hold a friendship. That's not a friendship. I've told him that too many times.
I know it still hurts, but it will get better. I wouldn’t ever think you were conceited for knowing how wonderful you are! It’s so great that you have that confidence! And if you do see Superman, then have fun. But if not, just know that you have Zac or Larry or Joel or me to go with! :) we all love you.
Another early a.m. shift. But….. bed…….
What I need to do, is stop acting like one day I’ll just end up in NYC and actually just pull the trigger and go. Save up some money and just do it.
