My priorities are changing.
About a year ago, I would have been perfectly fine, had I never went to college and if I spent my life as a starving artist type living in NYC. Now, I just wish that I hadn’t went to college and fucked up so badly. If I had actually cared about college, then I probably wouldn’t be in this situation that I am now. I’d be finished and I’d be able to start paying loans back.
Moving out wasn’t a mistake, at all. But so far I haven’t really discovered anything good about myself, only things that I wish I could have kept hidden. It’s really hard to admit to yourself that you’re a basket case, especially when your whole life you’ve been nothing but composed. Now, I think my life is just turning into something that I never really thought it would. I used to sit back and judge people who didn’t have anything going for them because they weren’t in school, but now, I am one of them. I won’t be able to afford to go back and now, after today, my credit is going to be severely fucked up.